Past few events:

2N stayover at my house
O bar
Powerhouse
SG vs Viet soccer match
Porridge & girls' talk

Few more random stuffs in-between...think i had an overdose of booze so much so i forgot how to blog ( i think qing's untouched blog is attributed to the very same reason! hahaha..) only van is still sober enough to know her A-Zs well! Boxing day potluck tomorrow can't wait! Holiday's ending way too soon, but i think i had more than enough fun and merry-making. I'm a happy girl!

It felt like it had been a hectic week and i feel like all my energy have been drained. Must be all the alcohol and masses of people at qing's birthday that sucked all life out of me, but i'm glad the party turned out great and the surprise 'salvaged'.

I was a mess that day, walking around like a headless chicken until now i don't know where i went to the bulk of the time. Which got me into a bit of a mess that led to tears with qing's friend offering me tissues. Utterly embarrassed....but reaffirmed the fact that i'm not a big party kinda person. Firstly i'm a social awkward in such events and i can't prioritise well especially when intoxicated. So i think i owe an apology to my hon, van and jean. Hon darling sorry you were left alone most of the time being the most sober yet had no one for company except to help out here and there & thinking where the hell am i, because i have no idea too! Jean, i dunno if it was my bottoms up that made you so drunk and i didnt even know when you had waken up but i hope i had put you in the right hands. Van van, i realised i forgot brandon was there so you had to be alone to self entertain and fend for yourself, and help send jean into her cab alone. I swear that what seemed like hours to you was like minutes to me and before i know it i was gone for like forever leaving all my dearest to themselves.

So you people please please forgive me for all that has been done in my drunken stupor k? I know it happens all the time when i drink but i didnt mean to abandon any of you. You all matter the most to me...i may have not been there when you needed me but i promise i'll be whenever i'm sober. I'll not drink anymore at big parties....maybe! =)

Time to wipe the dust off this ranting space.

This holiday has been far from monotonous, every week brings about surprises good and bad. Exploring new places, rediscovering the old. I can say the company makes a hell lot of a difference. Our lifestyle has also altered slightly with him being posted to different camps ever so often and with his own transport comes heavier responsibility and a bigger hole in our pockets. The price tag on convenience is hefty but i hope we can do it while indulging in our little splurges.

I do feel a little lost, like suddenly there's no constant in my life. It's like everyday is different, there is no routine or a fixed schedule some days can be really exciting while others i could be just wandering around. Even his posting is not fixed so we'll never know where he'll end up the next day, pretty much like playing amazing race. Even the nitty gritty stuffs like not knowing he doesnt eat roasted pork until now suddenly struck me, prompting me to question myself how well do i actually know this guy whose hands i've held for the past 3 1/2 years. Why at 20 did my life become a rollercoaster ride? Maybe the exciting life which i've always wished for has been granted, i wonder how well i'll do with the changes.


Be careful what you wish for, cos you just might get...