all thanks to you people

ever had it that your efforts were not recognised and even turned a blind eye to and accused of not doing work?


i haven till today. it was a heart-wrenching moment that i could never forget. its gonna be a long entry.bear with me though. and i cant be bothered anymore if the parties involved are gonna read my blog. i just have to let it all out. i did nothing wrong and my conscience have never been clearer than this.


we had interview for our club resort spa project and i was damn shocked when i was marked the lowest for peer apprasial. i couldnt contain my tears and ended up crying away in the midst of the interview. i even answered my questions in between tears. how would you feel when someone u have been friends and doing project with for 1 and a half years stabs u right in the back without a single trace or clue beforehand. and people u thought were nice and believe were friends worth making just throw u down in the dumps and banish u down in the pits.


who was the one giving all the ideas and had it all in the report..all i got is 'but we were the ones who backed it with research'. haa...it was not my part and i helped. so thats bullcrap la. if it is take out all my ideas now and do a brand new report. and whatever happened to a group project? was it wrong of me to ask for help when u are free? to want a second opinion because i know this is a GROUP project and not a one man show? or was it just simply like u said ' do profit and loss statement very difficult meh?'


i dunno if u remembered our kindness...when nobody wanted u in their group we asked u in. we even went on to be friends with u because we believed no one is that horrible. turned a blind eye when we din like the things u do. offered to help out when u had a test the next day. din complain a single word or mark u down when we did majority of the work. i have learnt my lesson, never to be too kind again because i've been hurt so deep this time its enough. its u guys who made me grow up...to never trust people again. no matter what we were all once friends and i hope u all wont do this to somebody else next time. i am going to be impartial and separate business and personal affairs. i'll still be a cooperative project mate till the very last bit of the project.


i really cant thank more for the people who stood by me throughout. jean who was with me from the very first moment, van for letting me cry on her, and qing i love u too k although u cant be there physically. i know u cared. no worries k girl. lynette for trusting me. it really mattered alot to me at that point of time to know someone knows i do my work. lynette thanks a million... really. and the rest of the class who asked how i was. and of cos baby. for standing by me all the while...even wanted to stand up for me =) i dunno how i would have survived without all you people. and mr lee for believing in me and helping me. i'm sorry for all the report u would have to write because of me...thank u for trying your best...even though the results is still uncertain. having people like this around you makes knowing that i might fail this module seem not at all that bad afterall. I LOVE YOU GUYS. <3 <3



an old school poen for my dear dear friends!

bird fly high, hard to catch
friends like u hard to find!


i know its lame! but i cant find better words to tell u girls how much i love u guys and the wonderful support u all have been. *hug* baby thanks a lot too....for being so understanding and supportive...=)