have you heard the mr brown podcast on the national day rally?
'mee siam mai hum' ........ mee siam got hum meh?



baby don't go

yesterday


met up with my lovelies from new town to celebrate peixuan and jacq's birthday! we ate like pigs at sakae! we were like the noiseiest customers there and sang the birthday song so loudly and nobody even bothered bout us. ate, took pictures and they went kbox while i went off because of my flu....we had fun! =)


on a random note, glutton's bay carrot cake is like super nice!!! the only food which the quality is not overhyped and overestimated although it is still overpriced. yummy!

spent the night thinking and reflecting.van i wasn't joking, i really went to do it! haha


i'm at a standstill between pursuing a degree or not. whether i can finish the course is another story altogether. its not at all too soon to think about it if u ask me. cos too often den not in my life, i always regret not planning ahead and did the preparations i could beforehand and end up living a life full of regrets. everything's so superficial, even the plans i have. its all just to secure a better future. when passion isnt enough and its all about surviving. i dun see a smooth-sailing life ahead.



i still believe in that angel of mine

i'm employed for IMF ! : Meeting Room Assistant.
most importantly Sundays double pay! i'm happy enough.


still sick, still struggling to study. AR's a chore..don't understand anything. GRR! just let me pass every paper..dun wanna come back for supp...no strength to study anymore after exams....i hate studying more than anything else. i've got all the gods to thank for passing exams for the past 17 years....if not my lazy ass could have landed me on the streets carrying a broom. please bless me for another 2 years or so till there's no more exams for me to take! =)

argh

i'm sick
and tomorrow's execution
i feel like crap now
and he's too busy studying to care bout me
sigh sigh sigh

this is my life - unbelievable

i cannot believe it. not until not. its not something bad neither will i say its something good. its just too much for me to take. can u imagine someone who paces around in your classroom, making jokes and tellin you things which will come out in ur examinations and the one whom u say hi to when u say him or her and go to when u have trouble doing your assignments actually reads your blog?!! lol...it feels so unreal la..to have this happening to me. and to hear it from his own mouth and the things that goes on inside their room.

like what mr lee said, the blog is never a private domain.


i'm still in shock. give me some time to absorb what i have heard. maybe i should not have been at the tas forum.. haha

penny for my thoughts

quarrel quarrel
so much of it these few days, but it always gets better.game, sleep, food, soccer, going home. we can waste tons of saliva, send endless smses, talk till no end, cry buckets just because of all these. i keep telling myself its time to grow up but the kid in me won't go away. what to do when u put 2 egoistic people together with a temper of the bull. literally SPARKS! u've made and effort and i saw it...i better say it out loud and clear in case u say i don't see and appreciate your efforts! =P


exams in 14 days. after 1 year and 3 months in HTM, i've been through and seen quite a lot of what i will be experiencing in future....

guys and girls included, we're all bitchy

lecturer or student, we're all kaypo

when marks and positioning is involved almost everybody turns ugly, like beggars ravaging for food

anything that looks good on the resume, all will chiong

glam, material stuffs, recognition is something most of us yearn for


but i'm still not changing my mind bout being in this industry...till this point of time that is. HTM opened me to alot of stuffs, changed the way i view things and brought me into reality. its a good place to be in if u wanna grow up. this environment really forces you to...i dunno if it speaks the same for the rest. i used to speak alot to everybody, now i only become a chatterbox with close friends and my baby. i dun even speak much to my family... that is how much the environment has changed me. now i understand what people mean when they say to stay grounded...i'm missing all my secondary school friends....back to the times where everything still seems so real....

for the time to stop

the first time i went to the clinic just to get a mc
watching television
cycling
slacking
eating rubbish canned food
boring escape theme park
fireworks



BEST CHALET EVER! =) u know how small stupid things can become the best things in life? this is it. love u loads.

Click!

went to watch Click today and its damn nice! cried like mad. my sister stayed at ritz carlton yesterday and we all went to see the fireworks! it was damn nice...the longest fireworks ever, 10 mins! its really different from the usual ones...so beautiful except baby wasnt there with me. and the hotel room was DAMN nice! the bathroom was humongous...and the bath-tub had a cushion. how cool! the room had the view of Singapore River and fullerton and the fireworks were right in front. its now me and van's mid-term goal to stay there during the holidays, if not somewhere else comparable. i cant wait!


What better news to end the week....i passed my crspa project!!! i love aloysius lee...! i couldnt stop thanking him and he was being all nice and telling me i deserved it. he's like my idol, role model, everything la. i already like him before this incident and i cant tell u how much i adore him now. thankfully he trusted in me and didnt doubt my responsibility. and also all my friends who trusted me! i'm so glad i passed this ordeal but i haven and will not forgive the people who caused me all the trouble.


i know i'm sounding like a horrid and revengeful bitch here! dun mess with scorpios... haha. i haven felt so much hatred for somebody before..i guess they brought out the bitch in me. anyway i'm a happy girl! got my ass saved and i dun have to retake crspa, watched a nice movie, cooked a meal for baby and tried something new! how much better can life get....i'm loving life no matter how tough it gets. cos i still believe the rainbow will appear after every storm! god has been really good to me...i din have to go thru any major mishaps in my life and there's always angels around me! we all shld learn to appreciate life! *BIG BIG SMILEY* =D

just got off the phone with the 3 lovelies.

i broke down again...

because i cant believe i've to bear the consequences of things i din do and got stabbed in the back by people i tot were frens...

but most importantly i know i've such great friends who are standing by me and aren't pretentious.



i am not a coward. i will admit if i did something wrong. if i'm in the wrong i'll just shut the fuck up. but because i'm not i'm speakin up for my own rights. please my ex-classmates and people who know me. if u think i dun do project please drop me a msg or a call. i just want to know what the majority thinks. if 50 ppl think i dun do proj den obviously my girlfriends are wrong about me and are not being fair. but if its the opposite den it speaks a different story. really ppl step forward to tell me if u think i dun do my projects....esp my ex groupmates. if i'm in the wrong i'll change. if not those ppl who accused me please convince me that i'm a lazy bitch

all thanks to you people

ever had it that your efforts were not recognised and even turned a blind eye to and accused of not doing work?


i haven till today. it was a heart-wrenching moment that i could never forget. its gonna be a long entry.bear with me though. and i cant be bothered anymore if the parties involved are gonna read my blog. i just have to let it all out. i did nothing wrong and my conscience have never been clearer than this.


we had interview for our club resort spa project and i was damn shocked when i was marked the lowest for peer apprasial. i couldnt contain my tears and ended up crying away in the midst of the interview. i even answered my questions in between tears. how would you feel when someone u have been friends and doing project with for 1 and a half years stabs u right in the back without a single trace or clue beforehand. and people u thought were nice and believe were friends worth making just throw u down in the dumps and banish u down in the pits.


who was the one giving all the ideas and had it all in the report..all i got is 'but we were the ones who backed it with research'. haa...it was not my part and i helped. so thats bullcrap la. if it is take out all my ideas now and do a brand new report. and whatever happened to a group project? was it wrong of me to ask for help when u are free? to want a second opinion because i know this is a GROUP project and not a one man show? or was it just simply like u said ' do profit and loss statement very difficult meh?'


i dunno if u remembered our kindness...when nobody wanted u in their group we asked u in. we even went on to be friends with u because we believed no one is that horrible. turned a blind eye when we din like the things u do. offered to help out when u had a test the next day. din complain a single word or mark u down when we did majority of the work. i have learnt my lesson, never to be too kind again because i've been hurt so deep this time its enough. its u guys who made me grow up...to never trust people again. no matter what we were all once friends and i hope u all wont do this to somebody else next time. i am going to be impartial and separate business and personal affairs. i'll still be a cooperative project mate till the very last bit of the project.


i really cant thank more for the people who stood by me throughout. jean who was with me from the very first moment, van for letting me cry on her, and qing i love u too k although u cant be there physically. i know u cared. no worries k girl. lynette for trusting me. it really mattered alot to me at that point of time to know someone knows i do my work. lynette thanks a million... really. and the rest of the class who asked how i was. and of cos baby. for standing by me all the while...even wanted to stand up for me =) i dunno how i would have survived without all you people. and mr lee for believing in me and helping me. i'm sorry for all the report u would have to write because of me...thank u for trying your best...even though the results is still uncertain. having people like this around you makes knowing that i might fail this module seem not at all that bad afterall. I LOVE YOU GUYS. <3 <3



an old school poen for my dear dear friends!

bird fly high, hard to catch
friends like u hard to find!


i know its lame! but i cant find better words to tell u girls how much i love u guys and the wonderful support u all have been. *hug* baby thanks a lot too....for being so understanding and supportive...=)

is it night or day?

when personalities and working patterns clash, the war begins. if i really fail this module because of a mistake i din make, i'm so gonna screw the people responsible. till now, i just have to wait till the verdict is out.


i'm so lookin forward to the national day holiday next week! CHALET! i cant tell u how excited i am because i just knew i had to make it happen! Talkin about holidays, its a love-hate thing for September.

The Bad - Baby's going away for 2 whole weeks! (multiply by 100000000 Bad!)
no contact 24/7 x 14. i dun wanna calculate....sigh

The Good - stayover at Van's! its gonna be so fun!

The "Hmm" - Work. IMF for Kelly Services? IMF for Revi Nair?
nothing's confirmed yet. what if i end up with none?


I really dunno if i'm lookin forward to September...though i'm definitely not looking forward to exams. Absence makes the heart grow fonder...right? i gotta chant that every single day to make things look better! and i can ask baby to help me get duty free perfume! that's a good to the bad aye? ;)



I'm a happy happy girl *GRINS*