i feel damn insecure now.
i hate it when my reserves in the bank are running low and u dun even know if u can survive through the days out, the no. of birthday dinners in the coming month and not even being able to get my phone anymore.i dun even own a phone now...the one i'm holding its not even mine.

the worse thing is, no one understands. when i say broke it doesnt mean i cant afford abalone so i gotta settle for lobster. i may have enough for meals and all but its just not gonna bring me thru the months to come....
screw everything...

one week of sch has started. like what van said, its like jet lag. still in the holiday mood..haven woken up from it.

met up with eddie and bel on thursday like finally! eddie was so nice he treated us to dinner and dessert...and knowing i wanted to eat jap he agreed =) me and bel interrograted him and until he told us more bout his new girlfriend. i'm so happy for him...though we were never really close, we never did had long chats, or hung out often but we're still close friends that still care bout each other and remember important dates like birthdays. all the best to you and your 'porcupine'! remember to bring her out with us soon!

short days spent with baby nowadays. i wished we had more time but i'm not complaining..better than none! he drove me home today...hopefully more to come! =) u're only human and we all make mistakes...dun be disappointed in yourself k? i'll always be here...!

Workin at customer service was a good experience. dealin with different enquries, seeing artistes or just slacking. haha


had a nice talk with baby...about life and what to expect in our relationship...time is such a tricky factor. it can make or break things. we're still young and learning to handle things the adult way can be trying...but we'll not give up. right baby? i love u

bloody hell...i got rejected by the interviewer! i think she hates me, cos she can feel that i dun really like her. i'm such a loser, fancy failing an interview after so long...and its not like its a high skilled post or something..just a surveyor...grrr! maybe i'm just lousy...forget it. derrick was nice, he called back with another job. working alone again, but its gonna be a good experience.

the past week had been fun! looking forward to our very own mini heritage trail. the holiday's been packed with activities and in between jobs that its gonna be gone soon. the holidays are getting shorter as the semester changes...stupid change in academic calendar.. &%^#%!&$*!~

chatted with the girls for 6 whole hours at mac today. we're such chatterbox....girls, what can u expect? =)

1.Single,taken or crushing??
Ans: Taken

2.Are u happy with ur life now?
Ans: yea. family,friends,love,education.what more can i ask for? except bad karma's been chasing after me. SUAY

3.When you meet the right person,will you fall with him/her fast?:
Ans: If he looks like Beckham or Tay Ping Hui, YES

4.Have you had your heart broken?
Ans: yes

5.Do you believe there are circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?

Ans: Never

6.Would you talk to someone back if he/she cheats on you?
Ans: tricky question.

7.Have you talk to another person about marriage before?

Ans: Yea, girls talk about it all the time.even if they say they dun wanna get married...most of the time its bullshit.. hahaha...like jean cai. lol

8.Do you want children?

Ans: after Xiaoping's description of her experience, i'm having second thoughts.

9.How many?

Ans: if i pluck up enough courage, probably 2

10.Would you consider adoption?

Ans: Nope. cant get over the psychological barrier

11.If someone like you right now,what do you think to let you know his/her feelings?

Ans: Be a man,do the right thing =)

12.Do you enjoy getting into relationships?

Ans: enjoy is a wrong word to use. haha

13.Be honest.What did you and your ex did?

Ans: It's for me to know, and for you to find out. LOL

14.Do you believe in love at first sight?

Ans: Nah

15.Are you romantic?

Ans: Nope. but i want my boyfriend to be! cos i love sweet surprises

16.Do you believe you can change someone?

Ans: if i'm fairy godmother. people change bcos of the environment and if they want to. i might be one of the factor but not the one who changed him/her entirely.

17.If you could marry somewhere,where would it be?

Ans: In singapore, outdoor reception by the sea. Don't like big wedding dinners! but....there must be sharks fin soup! haha

18.Do you easily give in when you're fighting?

Ans: Nope...i'm egoistic and as stubborn as a bull.

19.Do you have feelings for someone right now?

Ans: I have feelings towards everyone. Hatred is also a feeling right? haha

20.Have you ever wish you could have someone but you messed it up?

Ans: i guess so. cant really remember

21.Have you broken a heart?

Ans: I hope i hadn't.

23.Are you missing someone right now?

Ans: Yes! He's sound asleep...

Now you have to ask your 5 friends to do this survey on their blog.Write down their names below.Tag them in their blog to let them know and DON'T stop doing this survey.This survey have been going around.It made people occupied.Get started.And the 5 luckly people are:

Nicholas Hon

Jacqueline

Annabel

Peixuan

Jean Cai (if she ever read this)

i was so caught up with enjoying after 2 days of suffering i forgot to share something here.
i had tried the worst job on earth..no..i should say the worst supervisors on earth! Captains from SWISSOTEL. bloody suckers...they talk down to you, scold you for their own job, push their weight around and best of all...eat and enjoy while they order you to do tough labour. i remember theirs names and they better watch their steps...i'm so pissed with them. wait till ur management hears about your good deeds! its a bad place to do banqueting...horrid.

tanning at sentosa today! shopped at mustafa and walked from there to plaza singapura! i had so much fun...=) silin was so nice to get me free rides... thanks girl!