bad days

my friends have noticed the recent streak of deaths so have i. its amazingly scary from the number of people passing on i've heard recently.its always like that before the lunar 7th month. sometimes u really gotta believe that someone lives this other world which we cant see or feel.


van cheer up alright! i'm bad at comforting people...feel so useless just keeping quiet. smile smile! 2 more weeks and all our projs are gone! i've got this feeling something's gonna happen....good or bad i dunno...but its gonna be interesting...haa

i hate mondays...another 5 days without baby. can't wait for the weekends to come and do some shopping! ;)

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it was a tough fight to keep the relationship afloat. friends trouble and everything....it was tough to put on a strong front.. when in my mind i had to fight 2 battles...had to coax one side and tackle the other. dealing with emotions while fighting my own war on the other end. a near break up and a thinning friendship..i really dunno how long more i can stay alive. i'm hiding behind a smiling mask, with the overflowing tears. its too much for everybody to handle but somehow we have to, give and take...someone has to give more, thats what sparks a beautiful relationship which u'll never live to regret.


the union of imperfect humans causes a rift, but only you, the imperfect one can make it perfect.
i really want everything to be alright. friends, love. it doesnt matter if i have a million projs awaiting me, or tests that i'm gonna fail. i just wanna perfect this human relationship. i wished i was a goldfish, dumb and forgetful.


i love u guys, i just don't want anything to go wrong. my pride stops me from saying it but i mean it with all my heart

fatigue and muscle aches

projects and dinner&dance is driving me crazy. i just hate it when people simply dun understand i'm BUSY and not that i'm not willing to fork out some time for projects that are equally important. dun assume i din try my best but i'm really busy and tied up by a gazillion things!


deployment at luge yesterday was damn tiring. scorching hot sun and a chipped nail with dripping blood....what can get worse. my body is aching so much i cant bend properly...i'll never want to be at the conveyor belt again...i just suck at it. i love weekends now...back at sch there's no life at all...everyday we're staying till 8 to do projects and night-time at Sentosa is damn scary, with the merlion's green eyes! i miss all my friends....we've got no time to meet up during the sch term at all. I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH!

deep down

get away from me.....
am i hearing it right....

Of perverts and businessmen

working at the CommunicAsia now. same old thing...getting used to this boring job, but the pay is good for a poor folk like me so just sit there and people watch. same thing as the past few exhibitions, filled with perverts of all nationalities...a newcomer this season, China! haha... its mean to stereotype but of those i've seen (and all are ultra big exhibitions, mind you!) 1/4 are horrid lechers.how can they not be when they wanna flirt with ugly girls even. all blood (pussy i mean)-thirsty, looking for a fling in singapore.


we keep complaining but we'll still work in the end. esp me, the 3rd time already. i guess the reason is the pay and i guess entertaining those hungry businessmen verbally wont hurt counting that we won't see them anymore after 4 days! it opened us up to reality but its a really good experiences! so far i have bosses from italy, switzerland and belgium. back to the colourful world tml...well, literally i guess! haha. till then...i'll go rest my heel-tortured legs.

couch potato

stayover at cyn's was great. just eating, watching trashy mtv shows, gossiping and sleeping all day long. that's a real holiday but it isn't gonna stay for too long. tomorrow will be the start of projs! peixuan came over to my house awhile ago and we had a hearty chat. its been so long since ive seen her! and that bu yao lian keep saying i finally got to see her...lols. MS TAN, u still owe me my present ok! haha...u cant escape it now...written in black and white. i love holidays =)

bang the wall

i'm really bored now at home alone. the logical thing to do now would be to study for my accounting test on tuesday but as usual...being me! waiting for evening to go find him after his work and have dinner together.


ytd studied with cyn and van at tiong bahru and surprisingly we saw cyn's classmate there. quite surprising considering they all stay in the east. den they came over to my house to slack. i wished the holidays were longer..3/4 of the 3 weeks are taken up by projects and that leaves practically no time for ourselves! 4 projects which are due after the holidays and 2 of which has a weightage of 60%....so screwed la. one of them is to plan a building of resort in pulau ubin.... big big proj....and have i mentioned? Tourism Academy's lecturers are way better than those at TP! Oh and!!!!!!! i got deployed to LUGE !!! caroline saved my ass...initially it was Sentosa Golf Course but she swapped with me. =D had our first practice session at the restaurant on Fri and i was assigned captain...hectic day with the most customers of the week...made so many mistakes and got scolded by the chef. i would choose petite cafe over RITS anytime! no more service for now...its deployment at Luge first....WOOHOO!

mischief

giving up vacation cds for IMF (International Monetary Fund)! wasted my time going to school early in the morning yesterday for a really boring talk on the trip and not having a very helpful lecturer when we said we had to work for IMF ' u have to choose one' was his so damn helpful reply. cant clear my cds by year 2 anymore and gotta stick with stupid jap. poor van n jean....the stupid system din allocate them any cds just because they ASSUMED they were going for vacation one...now they're stucked at doing 2 cds in year 3 unless the sch does something about it. so you see, lecturers assume too.


was supposed to do our marketing proj tgt aft that but sch lab closed early so we went to cyn's house and had a hell lot of fun. we played old maid and the forfeit was hilarious! we are so mean and we're so gonna get karma for doing it......but who cares.. i'll think bout that later cos we had such a good time! fun time over....gotta start on my proj now....

jinxed

can i vent all my frustrations, anger, sadness here?

today is a freaking bad day....morning the stall which i wanted to lunch from was closed and i had to walk all the way back. realised my stocking was wrong went back home to change. running late took cab in. talked nonsense during marketing got lectured. made van angry and din manage to cheer her up. bought food for baby and he din wanna meet anymore. get bloody posted to Jap when its arts appreciation i applied for and mind you i signed up on the first day. seperated from jean for the vacation cds and qing's name could not be found on the list! worse of all, no one to be there when all this shit is happening to me...


all these might seem no where close to big problems but its draining me emotionally and mentally....when all happen at once u'll feel like u just had ur life and happiness sucked out by the dementors. i feel like crying....

catching up is always fun

Wednesday


met up for dinner with jac, bel and xinyi. had a good time laughing over cold jokes and talking bout school. after jac and xinyi left, bel and i chatted for awhile just standing around the bus stop till it became like an hour and a half chat seated outside old chang kee. there's so much bout the past which we only realise now but there is also alot more which we din know in the past which still remains a mystery. those were the old days where we did things which we look back and regret but laugh over it. i wished i could have remained friends with some people although the special feeling has long ceased to exist. i love memories both good and bad =)

i'm a happy girl

just celebrated our first year on friday! =D i was sick that day and threw tantrums...sorry baby.. but we made it up on saturday.

my aunt passed away and i sent her off on saturday.... she was younger than my mum.. she lost the battle of cancer. the new mandai crematorium looked so grand...made the atmosphere even more solemn. and my poor grandma had to attend the funeral of her own daughter. life is so unpredictable....


thank you for the gift.. i love it! =D

good old times

there's been a bit of a problem with my blog. the words entries, profile, links etc dun seem to appear right? but i can still click on them when i agar-agar move my cursor to where they are. haha. i'll try to get it fixed asap.

school's started for 2 weeks already but i'm still not used to everything. i still dun get half my class's name, navigation around the school is still bad, canteen food sucks and standards for personal grooming is like sky-high! the first time in my life i had to tie my barely there hair all up and spray all my fringe back leaving my fat face bare. i looked fugly. i can see heads nodding in unison...lol. i really miss 1H06.... all the nice people who looked after each other although we are not very close. we printed notes as a class and slacked together during lessons (maybe not all but more than my current class!) we'll never learn to cherish till its gone...

labour day

its a public holiday today! but all along it still seemed like holiday to me because i only went to school on monday and the rest of the time i was working at Food Hotel Asia. so now i'm very lost in school. i don't know my new campus at all except for where the lecture theatres are. i dun even know where to go for my lunch at sentosa.and i dunno who my classmates are yet! haha...tomorrow will feel like my first day in school...


buying a new computer soon.. this one's going crazy. crashing and recovering all in a day. yesterday went funan to browse thru the computers and a computer idiot like me shouldnt be doing this...i dun even know wat makes a good computer...lol. baby brought me to gluttons bay to eat stingray! he brought me around to walk in circles before finally bringing me there...and he had to queue for a really long time for the food. thank you baby! kinda dreading school tomorrow....

so long

my comp's down which explains the reason for being gone for so long. right now i'm using baby's lappy... its not fixed yet. gonna reformat it soon.

timetable's out and we're not with qing =( dun worry girl we'll be there for you no matter what happens. dun make new friends and not bother bout us alright!! campus at sentosa!!! i'm kinda excited and worried... the timetable's like crazy and i'm so not gonna be so slack like last sem. easy to say now huh... haha.. we'll see bout it again when the time comes. lol

my tummy's growing bigger and biggER...gonna explode any moment with all the reckless consumption of food...

retail therapy

it was good...damn good...although it was a little expensive but it satisfied all my needs and made me a happy girl....


i was talking about shopping! hahahaha....spent over 200 dollars...to me its a lot! i'm not rich, spending that amount seems like a million bucks to me.. haha..a bit of an exaggeration but i'm a happy girl now! baby kept nagging to me..hoping to stop me from buying and buying but wasnt of much help. i'm sorry baby! once in a blue moon only..to pamper myself for working so hard.. hee =)


shopping = happy girl

jinxed

i lost my phone AGAIN. 3 times in 12 months. so don't sms or call me yet.. should be getting the replacement on friday. shopping was great today except for the stupid pickpocket incident of my phone...i'm suffering from depression soon..!

out of control

back from partying at the hotel.
i got drunk first time ever....and i tell u a few girls getting drunk together is really pretty messy. we had a laugh over it...the things we were told that we did was shocking..well, lesson learnt.
damn shag after the entire thing, hangover and all. but we had a really good time.

empty

i'm so lonely here with no one there for me.
no one to talk to
no one to hold on to