The Wallet Theory

Wallets are a lot like girls.. You really have to take good care of them because if you don't, something might just happen..
"I know what he meant. I just lost a wallet, and I just lost a girl. You know, it's exactly the same thing.

One day, when you just realize it's gone, you try to look for it everywhere.. even going back to the places where you could have lost it.You think, and you think hard.. only to come upon a grim realization: it's really gone.Of course, you can hold on to some hope. After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed?) people who get it back.

Perhaps you could become one of those people. You sit home and you hope that that someone would call and that you would get it back. But then, as time passes, you realize that it's really gone and you know that it's time to let go.

The first few days, you turn to your friends for support. Some tell you you'll be ok, some tell you that it was your fault and that you should have been more careful. Some would tell you about their own experiences.They give you all sorts of advice, none of which you haven't heard before.

You then go out to find a new wallet, only to realize that you don't really want a new one. You want the old one that you lost. No, you don't want all these better-looking wallets. You want yours because you know how comfortable it was and how important it was because of all the cards, pictures and other stuff in it.

You go out and carry on without a wallet by keeping your money in your pocket instead. You throw away stuffs that you would have held on to, if you had your old wallet.
And then, finally, you find a new wallet you like and you start to settle in.You start filling your new wallet, little by little. It still doesn't feel as comfortable as the old one but it's getting there.Then you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet. Soon enough, there is as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one.

And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wallet.And then you realize that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet. Sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost in that wallet. But then again, you don't remember the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it.That's because that wallet you lost is no longer your wallet.

You're no longer holding on. This new wallet you're holding has all the important cards, pictures and stuff that you need. This is your wallet. And this time, you tell yourself..
"I'm never losing this one"
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ripped this off somewhere. i felt it made alot of sense. the ending may signify a beginning of something better. think of this story when u're feeling heartbroken.i know when u're in a midst of heartache nothing goes into your ear. but time will heal all wound. it really will.

no one's nursing a heartache or anything, just a really good story i came across.

i fulfilled my wish of going overseas this holiday!

i went to........JB yesterday! u buggers better stop laughing at me..my passport got stamped ok! went there to shop, eat seafood and take cabs with really cheap fares! bought a whole load of local products back and i got checked at immigration and my bubble gums got confiscated! got brought into the office and i thought what they were gonna do, in the end just ask me to sign some stuffs. the officers kept telling me its nothing just gotta destroy the gums.

went hanabi to eat just now...damn damn full now. dunno what's so special bout 2 of us that people kept looking like we were aliens. we kept laughing during the meal until baby choked twice! swimming tomorrow!

randomly, i just started to miss everyone.especially the people from new town.
and how coincidentally i entered a site with Graduation playing in its background.

loads of memories started coming back. The e2/3 graduation party. it was the most heart-wrenching party where girls bawled their hearts out and the guys did a oh-so-silly thing by doing push-ups in the middle of the road to let their sadness out. i guess almost everybody has forgotten it, including myself. just that memory lane decided to haunt me.

the place where i donned my smurf-like blue and white uniform was where most of my first-times happened.

First mischief
First taste of booze
First try at all the silly teenage stuffs
First group of really close friends
First failure
First heartbreak
First love

i miss all those who loved, hate or in one way or another brought memories into my life. A few in particular..though some we might not even contact anymore..i wish somehow our paths will cross again someday.

my tum, my tum
my lovely flabby tum





sit-ups, my best friend

IMF assignment over! It was a boring job and the best thing about it was talking to the security guards and the rest of the people working there. the delegates there were just like the other normal foreigners i;ve seen in other exhibitions except this time i saw ministers and loads of security guard. cant wait for the next job assignment...! i'm so broke...

he's back! he's back! and i got my exam results and i'm very satisfied with it! =) things are gonna get better from here....looking forward to working at IMF and the outdoor event this weekend. I've never taken on 2 jobs in a day...hopefully i will survive!

I still cant believe i'm seeing him once again..after so long. its back to the same old routine of going out, talkin on the phone den quarelling but i'm not complaining..at least he's here with me. better then the past 2 weeks...uber boring that quarrelling would have made my life more interesting. More job lobangs from mr neo and we're all happy!

its been an eventful week. in a good sense i suppose

sat and sun was stayover at van's. we had alot of fun...simply being couch potatoes and gluttons. we barbequed inside her house and i think we nearly engulfed it in smoke! haha...its the company that matters i guess =)


mon-thurs was work! at an event at raffles city convention centre, the Asia-Pacific Petroleum Conference. was working alone without the rest but luckily the people working with me were all nice and they were all from TP too. The job was an eye-opener, my boss and his wife were quite interested in my course and he had HTM interns before too! ohh...i got to usher the minister of trade! Mr Iswaran! okay la...i know not president but i'm happy enough! Got to feel what its like to be incharge of an event with people going up to you with all sorts of problems when ur boss is not around, have lengthy talks with the rich, attend high-end parties. just 4 days and i learnt and seen so much. the experience was more than i could put into words and you could say it was one of my best part-time job because i felt like i was part of the company, not just another temp worker. My boss asked me a few times 'So, do you still want to work in this industry after the experience?' The answer was still a yes, no hesitation. perhaps the people in the company was nice and i was a lucky bitch. i believe no matter how tough the going gets, i'll pull through it! i dun wanna get into a boring industry! wonderful experience =)


SIX more days to my baby's arrival! cant wait, cant wait!!!!! still lookin for part-time jobs...the next one's not until the 16th...i cant stand lazing around! i think its a good time to find out which sector of the hospitality industry i'm really interested and suited for...or maybe it wont even be in the hospitality industry! who know's? nothing's for sure. come back soon okay? i have so much to tell u that happened during the job! weird people i met, freaky incidents, complains, my experience...everything! 6 MORE DAYS!

and girls, thanks for keeping me company! especially van, came down to accompany on 2 occasions, although u had to travel all the way down. your reward is seeing a rare breed of man! haha...i love u girls. pizza was yummylicious!

i love my baby too!

11 more days to the boy's home-coming...


its already 2am...wanted to talk about today's events but it became yesterday, history.

Exams

ended yesterday. i dun feel happiness...just relieved.because my baby's away and i fear the results. i have a bad feeling about accounting.



MASQUED


HTMIG's party was today. well, i had fun la...though i think iG members are the only ones...i think we were all in out own land getting high and all. is just that my mind was always somewhere else...in the faraway land of vietnam i supposed... haha


information overload today. derrick got me a job from mon till thurs next week. den mr neo introduced so many jobs to us today....hopefully it'll keep me occupied till he comes back. that poor boy says he's sunburnt and the room is hot and all...i can almost feel his sufferings. i just constantly wondering what he's doing and how he's doing.. these 14 days are too much for me to bear! Looking forward to stayover in a few hours time! at least my girls are with me and we'll have so much fun!



miss him so much la. the closest i can get to him is his laptop and ipod. counting down every day, hour, min, seconds to his arrival!