i think at 19 i'm still not savvy enough but old enough to have the freedom to do the things i like. and not be restricted like i'm still in secondary school. hello, this only pulls us further not closer. and your other 3 darling daughters have been through my phase just not within what your eyes can see because they were more than a 1000 miles away in england and australia. so please give me my long awaited freedom and respect. if i fall i can only blame myself and thats the only way i can learn. i'm learning to grow up, don't stop me.



i'm fcukin pissed now...
the only thing that went right was,
i finally got to tan!!
i'm bloody red now and...
i'm damn hot (think paris..haha)
i hate my freakin fair skin cos it makes me look like a pig
BAI BAI PANG PANG
screw the pigs...i'm not fair anymore! at least for NOW! haha
i look like roasted pork though...
and i wish ugly betty will make ugly the next in thing
den i can smurk at all the pretty girls and tell them
I'm hot..and you're NOT!

the heat and anger is getting me pretty screwed up...goodnight world